Kayotic

Keep on striving

Fri, 18 May 2012 13:50:34 +1000

Half of 2012 is nearly over. It’s been such a big roller coaster ride that if you ask me what i’ve done i can honestly tell you that the only thing i’ve been doing a lot of, is thinking.

Today i passed through another hurdle. or should i say we. 2 years ago before i came to australia i was adamant i wanted to study accounting and finance not because i love numbers (which i do, sort of) but because that was one of the ways to get a PR. come graduation the immigration changed the rules and things got that much harder. in between looking for a part-time job to sustain my living and then spending all the money on stupid IELTS tests i’ve questioned my intentions to stay here in Melbourne over and over again. it was not only physically tiring but it was the uncertainties that took a toll on our emotions.

but when i was in the middle of deciding to go home, we finally got through the hurdle of ielts!

that faithful day itself, we brought our psyched self to see an agent and said we wanted to lodge our application right away. but wait. there was more to do. to gather MORE documents. i had files piled up in my room! we worked in the day and tried to complete the docs at night. and the we had to start applying for professional, full-time jobs.

the nights spent writing cover letters, sharpening resumes and answering questions about myself that i may not even know about were strenuous to say the least. the rejection letters that come in flocks didn’t help a single bit of my self-esteem. again, i started thinking about home and how much easier it is back home to get a job that i want. i had a choice. i didn’t take it. i chose to compete with people who’re of a lighter skin colour, who can speak better, and maybe, perform better.

well, i’m still here now after many thoughts of home. there’s just something about Australia which i’m not ready to give up. the more i can’t get something the more i want it, and that’s human nature.

by the time i go back, i want to know, that i am competitive. that i can get what i want. as long as i work towards it.

ok welllll that was a lot of blah, isn’t it? i’ve also just recently opened a new jewellery store because this is the only thing that’s keeping me sane, and happy.

it’s www.stackoodles.etsy.com . everything is so quaint and pretty there. and best of all, customize your own colours so there’s no one who has another one like yours. cheers!

Plans

Mon, 14 May 2012 14:01:43 +1000

Yes. I’ve finally made plans for the week.

It’s called meal plans. It has come to my attention that we’ve been spending a lot of money on takeaway meals, and eventhough we’ve started *sort of* working the money isn’t going into my savings account.

So today, I am gonna sit in front of my calendar, and plan a meal a day for the week. Easy meals for long days at work, and not-so-easy meals for the shorter days. However much my groceries will cost, I doubt it’s gonna be more than 20 dollars a day.

Hmm. What will I be craving for?

A moment to remember

Fri, 13 Apr 2012 13:58:00 +1000

Because today is the day when all my hopes and dreams are renewed. there was a bleak moment, when my drive took a halt, but i realize that everytime i go through a tunnel i see light the very next day.

one fine day, i want to be able to say that i’ve done it. that i am successful. and i want you to know that you were the drive behind my success. you made us lose everything so now i’m gonna get them all back and more- on my own. so thank you for giving me this opportunity.

we’re moving on.

"Do you want some ice-cream?"

Fri, 06 Jan 2012 10:28:00 +1100

"Do you want some ice-cream?"
"No, because i want to be able to say that you finished a whole pint of ice-cream by yourself."

Another milestone :)

Mon, 02 Jan 2012 12:12:40 +1100

Another milestone :)

haven’t done such narcissistic camwhoring in a...

Sun, 30 Oct 2011 16:11:00 +1100

haven’t done such narcissistic camwhoring in a loooooooooooong time. i’m planning to stay here til 2am so i guess 2 minutes of camwhoring using my laptop webcam won’t hurt. (i also have a lot of newfound hobbies. surprise surprise, all these are realized during exam period. yosh.)

-Melbourne University Law Library

Do you have any idea how daunting the thought of being a fresh graduate is? Or maybe what’s...

Sat, 22 Oct 2011 11:09:52 +1100

Do you have any idea how daunting the thought of being a fresh graduate is? Or maybe what’s daunting is the thought of the uncertainties and expectations that lie ahead of graduation..

"Our dilemma is that we hate change and love it at the same time; what we really want is for things..."

Fri, 21 Oct 2011 19:33:29 +1100

“Our dilemma is that we hate change and love it at the same time; what we really want is for things to remain the same but get better.”

- Sydney J. Harris

some people say that I’m lucky. and I agree. but there...

Sun, 16 Oct 2011 11:08:00 +1100

some people say that I’m lucky. and I agree. but there were a lot of time and effort put in to reach that point of “being lucky”.

like how people get good grades because they studied hard.

people get fantastic careers because they went through a gazillion other interviews, painful experiences and what not.

and similarly, some people have good friends because they’ve been one themselves. a good friendship is reciprocity.

So tell me again if it’s luck or hard work. there should be a very big distinction. <3

the high in October :) -MUMSU Ball @ Studio 3, Crown

Sun, 09 Oct 2011 11:05:00 +1100

the high in October :)

-MUMSU Ball @ Studio 3, Crown

16 hours drive.. Conquered! -Perry Sandhills, NSW

Sat, 08 Oct 2011 11:07:00 +1100

16 hours drive.. Conquered!

-Perry Sandhills, NSW

Nice to be asked:) -backyard

Sun, 18 Sep 2011 23:28:00 +1000

Nice to be asked:)

-backyard

"Like this stuffed bear is going to teach this baby how to read and write! Here. Babies love..."

Sun, 11 Sep 2011 15:56:27 +1000

““Like this stuffed bear is going to teach this baby how to read and write! Here. Babies love dictionaries!””

- Chuck Season 4

"sometimes a heavy burden, just means a heavy burden. it’s as simple as it sounds."

Wed, 07 Sep 2011 15:20:08 +1000

“sometimes a heavy burden, just means a heavy burden. it’s as simple as it sounds.”

"I am very straightforward- but that’s just because I am honest and sincere. and if you cannot..."

Tue, 06 Sep 2011 19:38:14 +1000

“I am very straightforward- but that’s just because I am honest and sincere. and if you cannot take a person like this, it just means you’re afraid to face the cold, hard truth.”

"Maybe we are the way we are because of the people we’re with.. Maybe, we pick the people we..."

Sun, 28 Aug 2011 16:29:36 +1000

“

Maybe we are the way we are because of the people we’re with..

Maybe, we pick the people we need..

However it works, when we find each other, we should never let go.

”

- Modern family

So who won?

Tue, 23 Aug 2011 00:35:35 +1000

So who won?

"I want to be able to breathe through my nose once again. Only when we lose something so simple as..."

Tue, 23 Aug 2011 00:30:50 +1000

“I want to be able to breathe through my nose once again. Only when we lose something so simple as this do we realize that we’ve never really bothered to appreciate such things that’re so close and fundamental to us.”

- The blocked nose me

Bee on my legggggggggggggggggg! karma came back to sting me for...

Sat, 20 Aug 2011 14:43:32 +1000

Bee on my legggggggggggggggggg! karma came back to sting me for talking about the bee’s exploding balls

Life is finally going my way!

Fri, 19 Aug 2011 10:29:24 +1000

So many reasons to be happy today!

1. Found out that my uni owes me 8% worth of marks. I actually applied to see my test paper cuz i wasn’t that satisfied. WOOT WOOOT.

2. FINALLY got through to the dude I’ve been looking for after one week of frantic calling. CROWN IT IS!

3. found another way to get my PR! :)

4. Have a TV in my room!!! YES

and several other things that gave my confidence some push. like how i got a job without expecting it. and how things will eventually work out as long as we give it time and a lil faith :)